why so dead here. i shall attempt to revive it.

anyhow updates! new ct reps yanheng and huihui. ya give them all your support. they will need it HEH.

phew now i'm free from lj, cip etc etc. i feel like i'm released. ru shi zhong fu. hahahaha. good luck the two of you. have fun! =P

yup. chem spa tmr. uh jia you jia you.

and zy i like your design! quick change the template. this one is gay. =/

haha hi yeah, i was kinda bored after studying for econs came up with a sorta layout for this blog that looks kinda sad now. anyway do take a look and comment. i won't change it so soon. not that free. anyway click to view (:

yes thanks to everybody who voted for everyone in the class!

now our class officially has 6 councillors. weilin, paul, yj, mark, zy and me.

and to yanheng, don't give up hope yeah? there are people around who still love you! hahaha. =D jiayou and cheer up!

okay so now we need new ct reps and all the minor minor details we will settle soon. in the meantime enjoy the next two weeks. they are going to be some killer weeks.

ciaos.

i got proof that yj has no life (and is quite bored, at that):(yes, it reads 8410)

okay sent this to the class egroup but just in case i post here too.

PEOPLE PLEASE READ and do accordingly.

Dear JC1 CT reps of the following classes:

S03A, S03B, S03C, S03D, S03G, S03K, S03L, S03O, S03P, S03Q, S03R, S03S, S06A,S06B, S06C, S06D, S06G, S06K, S06M, S06P, S06Q, S06R, S07A, S07B, A01B, A01D, A13A,

For Civics in Term 2, your CTs have opted to teach a Civics Elective Module in the Civics Elective Module Programme at RJC. This means that for a 4 week period, instead of attending weekly Civics lesson as a class with your own CT, your classmates and yourselves will be able to choose from a range of modules and attend a module that you each choose individually. The list of modules available is attached for your reference. Please help me to inform your classmates via email or verbally about this programme so that they can all sign up during the sign up period from 11-13 Apr. The procedure is as follows:

1. They are to go to http://f0704b02/applications.applogin/index.asp OR click on the link from our school intranet homepage (Civics Elective Module Programme).
2. The students login with their I/C or FIN number as the USER I.D.
3. The password is the same for all students - "PASSWORD".
4. Tell your classmates to sign up for just ONE module.
5. Sign up period is from 11 Apr to 13 Apr. The electronic sign up system operates on a first-come-first-served basis.
6. The modules will be conducted on 25 Apr, 9 May, 16 May, 23 May during Civics period (0800-0855 hours).
Thank you for your help in disseminating the information to your classmates.

OKAY? got it?

yup for some weird reason the link doesn't seem to work. and i don't know what the school intranet homepage is. so i don't know how to register for whatever.

the modules available are sent to the email i forwarded to the egroup so go there and check it out.

DATELINE IS THIS THURS. 13th april. better go sign up early ah later get some weird module don't come and complain.

okay that's enough nagging from me bye!

Yejie makes weird chem jokes during econs. Talking about car chasses being made of aluminium and have an ability to lose 3 electrons. And something abotu Protons (the car). Random stuff lar.
Quote: "I like double-sided tape, it's very fascinating" - YJ
Geog period now. Waiting for Mr K to come back with Volcano Hell. He's suddenly dissappeared. Oh no.
Angela: "The role of state and supernatural bodies"
lol.
Vote for me! (: And Paul. And Mark. And Yejie. And Yanheng. And Weilin. And Wan Chee. Whee.

once again, wan chee, zhuoyi and me are in school stoning. we're in the librarby. im typing this entry while they are trying to mug.

anyways, our class rocks. i just said 'oh we need to think about cip'. zhuoyi says 'put that in the blog so i will remember'. i dont unerstand what he means, but heck i'll just include it in. he just gave me a bewildered look. and he just asked 'i did?', followed by 'paul, do u noe how to spell "matthews-in-a-mic"?' and i am like dunno how to spell but the irony is that i just typed it out and now wan chee is giggling at me.

zhuoyi takes over the keyboard

stop typing crap paul. peace out

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zy pressed the 'publish post' button on purpose and published the post. but being the no lifer i am, i edited the post so here i am again blogging some random crap.

zy just walked over to the couches, and wan chee is looking at the screen.

i was thinking about eating at mcdonalds because i like the mcchicken. u noe i had problem spelling 'mcchicken' so wan chee helped me spell it. and she says im very random. thanks for telling me the obvious, Mrs. Obvious.

library is very quiet now. i just saw someone with his shirt untucked walk around the library. i shall make some noise now to see people's reaction.

i just clicked my tongue and no one bothered. wan chee just said 'what the hell'. but im sure its an honour for her to sit beside me. she just said 'whatever whatever'. like i raelly wanna sit beside her. and her reply is 'like i really wanna sit beside u'. 'then y r u seated beside me now?'. and chee just looked away and continues completing her math tutorial..

btw, i havent completed math tutorial. only did up to qn 7. mr teo says whats the point of doing till there only. so when i go home tonight i will attempt to complete the whoile tutorial. 7 more terms till i can drop math.

remember to talk more during gp.

remember to train for napfa.

zy just drank water in the library. is it allowed? i hope is isnt so the librarian will come and scold him. wan chee is looking at the screen again. 'hi wanchee', says i. 'paul has no life. please write that down', replies wan chee.

...which leads me to this question. how do we determine what is a life? is it because you finish your homework? is it because you listen during lectures? is it because u are a leader thinker pioneer, or score damn well in O levels? there is an apparent variation in definition of having a life. angela for one thinks that cca = having a life. i jsut asked wan chee'whats constitutes having a life?'. 'not doing what i'm doing', directed to me. okay. i think having a life is making a difference to other ppl's lives, in this case, entertaining them. 'zy, wut's having a life to u?'. 'whats wrong with you paul?'. hmph....

ponder over that question. it's now 520pm i want to go back to boarding for dinner. then at 550pm i will come back to rj to collect some council thingy. bye!

wanchee: buhbye
zy: whats wrong with you paul?
paul: i have a life but u all dont think so.
wanchee: whats wrong eith u paul?
zy: you spelt 'with' wrongly
paul edits wanchee's words: whats wrong with you paul?
zy: paul, get off the keyboard and stop being sad

lame...

BOO!

i know this is not exactly in line with whatever is going in the blog, but i'm not going to engage myself in long debate because 1) i'll get thrashed and 2) i want to sleep.

and life isn't that bad. not if we all rebel and not do our PW/geog presentations. the only downside is that you get into trouble, but trust me you'll be more CAREFREE =)

anyway that's not my point. as can be seen from my title, i'm here to offer you the latest GC games. well since no one else wanted to download any, i decided to be the 前车之鉴 and do it. after all 我不下地狱，那谁下地狱？(ya my chinese sucks don't rub it in - i know it's some bad modification to the original phrase)

erm okay forget that. the 2 games are dance dance revolution and dodgeball respectively.

DDR is basically some spastic game where you have to use your fingers to dance your GC, not too difficult unless you have serious psychomotor problems. or unless you play "kick the can" at "insane" level. my high score is 1920, try beating it. the other game, dodgeball, is somewhat like poo rain you play on your hp. umm basically you'll just have to dodge loads of shit falling from the sky. my record's 1428, so come beat that.

if you want those games, you'll first have to download MIRAGE OS, go search in on the web. and then get the games from me. or if you're a lazy bugger, just get the whole package from me. being the nice guy that i am (okay maybe not that nice), i will not charge you any money from downloading from me! that's what i call p2p software man. all in good time!

so if you want more entertainment, A CABLE IS ALL YOU NEED!

CHEERS TO LESS BORING MATHS LECTURES AHEAD! WOOTS!

whoa. what's this mann. WHY SO CHEEM. it took me quite a while to digest whatever was said.

anyhow what i wanted to say is please, relax! this blog is starting to get too wordy for my liking.

not that i encourage cliques or anything, but yeah, mark's right to a certain extent, we can't help it if we feel a stronger sense of contentment/happiness/belonging etcetc to a a certain group of people. if everybody can coexist with everybody in the world, there would be no murders, no wars, no nothing evil at all. it would be a perfect world and there would be like what miss congeniality would say "world peace".

if you are trying to get a particular point across to anybody in particular, please be a man and say it out. posting long and tiring to read posts doesn't really help you see. i for one, got bored after reading the first two paragraphs and just skimmed through the rest of the posts.

OKAY. so yes. we are ONE class. no matter how much we can dislike somebody or anything, please try to tolerate whoever. cos in the end, we would have to be together for two long years. so open your heart, your mind, your whatever else la. let's all be good friends and one big happy family! -cues barney's theme song-

HAHA okay i was kidding about that last sentence of the previous paragraph. but you do get my point right? make love not war! haha okok i'm being quite crappy now.

okay so stop post cheem, wordy, brain-stimulating posts. especially after such long days long posts are quite a turnoff.

CHILL people! i'm chilled now. was drenched like some wet chicken while walking to bishan mrt just now la. somehow the umbrella i shared with my friend DOESN'T serve its purpose.

fine lame pun. trying to lighten up the atmosphere here. SMILE PEOPLE! there's pw tmr and geog presentation tmr its a disturbingly long day. so yes. too much angst will only make your life even shorter.

Hi all. There's sure a lot to be said that aren't said, in the annoyingly complex way that things tend to be. Where do we start then. In all seriousity, I think the world is screwed up, at any rate, bad enough for us to realise that altruism sometimes has to be the only way we're gonna live a good, or at least fulfilling life.
I wish I could count the number of times I've fallen short of whatever standards I've set for myself (yes, I do set standards for myself). Fact remains, I can't, we all can't. I can't remember the number of times I've wished I hadn't been such a pompous ass, or wish I'd hadn't made some flippantly base comment just a few minutes ago.
I think we all: yup, all of us - that's me, that's you, and that's the rest of the world - have room for change. We aren't bloody perfect, not in the least, but at least I'm trying. It's hard, but I'm trying - because it's what I believe to be the right thing to do. I'd hate to quote gratituously, but here's one that we all might find pertinent. "You live and learn. At any rate, you live." - Douglas Adams. I don't think most of us have the choice to live or not, but we all have a choice to learn while we're at it. They tell us to watch and learn - watch the way we grit out teeth, watch the way we wince, watch the way we all react (or if you would, overreact), and watch the way our lives are played out among other people. I'm guessing we could all afford to try harder...
I hope I can salvage some amount of physics from the recesses of your minds: remember Newton's third law. Every action has an equal and opposite reaction.
Anyway, lighten up, let's not put a damper on things (this is, after all, my first full lenght post here...), nor get ourselves in a moral debate of any sort. Things could be worse, and regardless of the amount of cliches I can use, life, mercilessly, goes on.

this is probably my first entry up here.. haha.
Firstly to mark: THANKS!! =DD but guess wad i fell ill on my own birthday. how sad is that. and now i have a pile of homework undone, cuz I had been sleeping for 12 hours + trying to perspire the whole of yesterday =(
and happy birthday to annong!! XDD

here is chenzhen's entry, sent to yanheng and fowarded to yours truly. (and i've been asked to post it up here, of course)

I am not accustomed to writing blog entries. The usual case is replies, long or short, to other people’s comments. However, there are some things too serious, and too lengthy, to be imprinted within a single reply, and I have to source for means to get it out as a post instead of a tag.

I have been thinking long and hard the past few days. Those who noticed, said I was in a dark, brooding mood. Even some who see me only a couple of times a week may have seen the change. For those of you who didn’t, I probably wasn’t that important to you, but don’t worry about it, no offense taken.

Someone once asked me whether I knew how cliques were formed, and what we could do to solve the problem. At that time I did not have any answers for him. Now I do. Cliques aren’t just a group of people closer than with others, it cannot be solved just by sharing a table during recess or lunch break. Cliques stem basically from a very powerful instinct of the human nature: the herd instinct. Something magical happens when you join a group of people, an unlimited sense of freedom. The saying goes “no man is an island”. We yearn for something bigger, a collective effort, because at our cores, the human being is lonely. The feeling of warm acceptance within a group is frightfully addictive. When your individuality is dissolved within the group, that you act in the way the pack directs. “it takes courage to say no” may sound familiar to many people, but it may all that stands between humanity, and the abyss.

I am not saying that all cliques are bad. In fact it can be a double-edged sword. But more often than not, it is this that forms the building block of irrational thought and actions. How many times have you done something just because everyone else is doing it? Have you ever done something seemingly of your own accord, but on reflection, didn’t really have a choice? “everyone has a choice. We always have a choice” is true, but only when we are not bound by the shackles of social life and friendship, which, when you think about it, does not happen very often. I leave you all with this thought in mind, and you must remember why people do not want to join an already well-established clique; they simply do not feel accepted. If you have ever gone visiting relatives and hated it because they keep talking about grown-up stuff when you were younger, you will well understand what I am talking about. What we are going to do about it, or whether we’re going to leave the clique situation as it is, would now be out of my jurisdiction.

I will move on to another topic. It is natural for people to have likes and dislikes, and of course this would extend to other people. You cannot expect me to believe you like everyone, or that you dislike everyone. It just does not happen. What does make a difference, however, is the way you act according to this preference. Relations are relations, business is business. Do not mix the two up; do not let your relationship with people influence your sense of morality. We have often heard of people, recorded in history, as being traitorous, sly and more. Would you gossip and talk bad about a colleague to your boss, knowing full well that what you say could cause him to lose his job, the only means to support his family? Would you set someone up just because you cannot stand him for whatever reason, knowing full well that he is innocent and would irreparably damage his future prospects? If your answers to these questions are yes, I would worry not just about your character, but also the future of humanity as a whole.

Where we may go out of our way to help good friends, I draw the line at being nasty. It has been established that everyone has a sense of morals, a moral code, however diluted it may have become due to external influences. When you see someone committing a crime, we have often been told to take action, not just stand there. But how many of us actually remember that when we are put in that situation? It is all right to have a joke at someone, indeed he may even join in the laughter. But you must realize when the joke has ended. The Rwandan crisis of 1994 started from a few racial jokes, which blossomed into outright discrimination. We have often been warned against making racial jokes and comments, as a prevention to causing racial disharmony. It is not the individual jokes that cause this problem, it is the continued usage of them, long after the humour has dried up. it is like backing a person into a corner with words, and when he has nowhere else to go to, he will fight back with all he has.

When making these comments, I want to believe it is not a strong belief in what you are saying. It stems from the insecurity of your position and how to turn the gun barrel to someone else. A bully does not bully for the sake of bullying. He usually has an ulterior motive, perhaps to hide his own troubles, or divert attention away from his life. Understandably, we are al slaves to our own self-regard.

Why, you say, is it so important that you stand up for what is right, and know when to say “no”? it is, again, the mob mentality. Without any resistance, they will do what they like, and will probably succeed doing it. A deserted factory whose windows are all intact is likely to keep all the windows intact, but once one window is broken, the rest would get quickly smashed by vandals, because everyone gets the feeling that nobody cares. What a difference it would have made had someone patched up the first window, or even the second one smashed by vandals! As the famous riddle goes “Everybody thought Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it.” Be that somebody, make some use of the short term on Earth we call life.

Now, I have a confession to make. Prior to writing this, even 8 hours ago, I was struggling to resolve myself to cut all connections and keep mostly to myself, except when approached by others. Why should I go out of my way to help others, get or keep them out of trouble or even offer any comments that could potentially benefit those who would stab you in the back or show hostility towards you at the first opportunity? Those who know me will know that I have a very long temper fuse, that I have a high level of tolerance. Unfortunately, that long fuse is attached to a large explosive. I try to find space in my heart to forgive and forget, but sometimes it gets very difficult, especially, as I have said, when words and actions are on the boundary, or has at times even crossed the boundary of discrimination. And the few times I have blown up, it has caused large rifts with people, sometimes to the extent where I regret it. Human emotion is a funny thing. We appear to have control over it, but most of the time it is subconscious, and our actions are moulded to fit our feeling at that time. Do you cry because you are sad, or are you sad because you cry?

I cannot bring myself to resolve with conviction what I have said earlier. This is largely due, in part, with what I believe in being morally right. Who knows when that aid I denied could help someone get a better outlook at life, or enable that someone to solve some important issue. Of course, many people would point out: you can always break your resolve, fit your action to suit the situation. It might be sound advice, but it is also a very bad philosophy. How will people bring themselves to trust you when you have amply exhibited that you cannot even trust yourself? Trust is an important element in the workings of social life. People will rest easier dedicating tasks to you, when they have full confidence you will carry out the task to the best of your ability.

Another suggestion, brought to me by no fewer than 3 parties, suggested that I keep a smiling façade, brighten up so as to live life normally and not get depressed. That, while keeping up appearances, is potentially very dangerous. When someone is silent you do not know what they are thinking. You do not know if they harbour a hatred for you, or are just to busy at that point in time. A country is in deep trouble if there are large parties of people, angry with each other and yet not talking about it. It is a staging ground, a breeding ground for riots; it is civil war waiting to happen. Same goes for yourself. If you continually keep up a façade, people do not know what you feel, and more important perhaps, you may not realize what you feel yourself. It is like a volcano under pressure. When it erupts, the result is not going to be pleasant.

I have no doubt there are some people who would wish me not to talk to them, indeed even pretend I didn’t exist. I’m fine with that. Whether you view that as a loss or benefit that’s up to you. But I shouldn’t withdraw my offer under any circumstance. From now on, if you do not wish me to intervene, by all means just ignore. But don’t forget the philosophies of life I’ve outlined above, and know that a helping hand will always be extended to you when you need it, simply because it is the right thing to do.